I don't enjoy most conversations with people because they feel very one-sided. I try to learn things from them and I don't; they mostly talk about the same things. I end up teaching them about other topics. They also want to vent about their lives and don't reciprocate, never asking me about my life or not having anything to say about it if I do talk about my life. I feel like a consultant on a lot of different topics because they just want to pick my brain and don't care about me.

I also don't enjoy doing the free emotional labor of helping them, because they often have much easier or better lives than me, and are just using me for that emotional labor because I don't have anything else to do. I don't have regular friends and I don't have a job, and when I did have a job it was so abusive that it made me severely physically ill (24/7 work in bad conditions, not physically allowed to leave) and I had to quit to recover, and so I'm available and bored for them to then vent to me about their very easy desk jobs and their other relationships with great people.

Since that job and my college experience of my parents coercing me to take a major that I didn't want and then coercing me to drop out when I did change to one I wanted, I just have nothing in common with all of these people who are getting to do what they want. They can't get their shit together and wouldn't be able to survive what I have or how I have to live today, but

I'm just someone for them to dump on because I'm a low status person. I recently saw an article about how people use a therapist like a low status friend to vent to, and that's exactly what I am to anyone who talks to me, but I can't even get paid for it, and I can't afford the money or time to even go become a licensed therapist because I've been forced into an awful life situation just to survive, that I'm live-in help used for my body and manual labor with no pay and no breaks until I'm at the point of collapsing. Others don't appreciate how good they have it, that they have money and they can take a break sometimes, and they can vent to people like me and get emotional support and other help, whereas no one wants to do that for me.

Anyway, my parents tell me that my problems are because I'm negative and that I have NPD, and that I can't have a good relationship with anyone or a good job because of those issues, that no one wants me or likes me. I don't know how to deal with that or what to do, because I don't have any way to pay for treatment if it's even available for NPD, and have exhausted all options when trying to find assistance (I'm not qualified when I've applied or talked to someone in the government about it). They want me to go back to living with them and giving them my whole paycheck from the abusive min wage job like before, and honestly I'd rather do what I'm doing now just to get away from them and have a little solace from how they ruined my life, which also included teaching me wrong ways to socialize with people (which probably were from their own NPD) and being a bad example, on top of the school and work issues that were the result of following their orders.