Why does nobody like my posts here? And nobody here wants to be my friend 🥺 I feel so low functioning. Like it just keeps getting worse and worse with each collapse... Do you people find it that your defenses became worse and stronger after collapsing? I cant face reality or maybe i just dont know what it is because i either feel like everything or nothing at the same time.

Real talk doee: do you guys have almost no motivation to do anything useful or productive. i am making my life worse and spiralling downwards and cant stop. I dont want to have to hit the very bottom before i wake up but I can't seem to help myself.

Im in a loop...like so disconnected frkm reality. Everyone here talks about relationships and work and stuff... i cant even function. I am too pathetic to date. Im not even sure if i want to date. I wish somebody understood. I dont even understand tbh. Like ughh and i also keep wanting to destroy myself. What is this obsession with wanting to destroy and deatruct myself and everything around me. Or maybe i have r/aspd lol.