I just want to preface this by saying I have an established appointment for my NICU baby Thursday. And I’m just looking for advice and or someone to tell me I’m overthinking maybe.

So yesterday I took my NICU baby to the hospital after a pretty bad fussy episode because his breathing looked weird and it worried me, they checked him out all his vitals were great his lungs and heart sounded great and they summarized it to just a normal fussy episode and there was nothing to worry about.

I’ve been worried ever since then though cause I feel like I’m noticing subtle changes in how he acts and what not. So my biggest thing is he’s falling asleep at night so much easier than he did before yesterday. I did introduce a new binkie that he actually likes so that might be why, but he’s also kinda hard to wake up it definitely takes a minute to wake him up myself. He wakes himself up just fine but when I’m trying to wake him up it requires a bit of work.

Also sometimes, not very often, he feels as though he’s a little extra floppy, like every single muscle is relaxed. He is still pretty squirmy though. Another thing I’ve noticed that my fiance says he’s done since we brought him home is he goes still and just stares, he kind of reacts when I get close to his face but it doesn’t completely bring him out of the stare.

Most of the time he acts like he did before the hospital trip, but every so often I’m watching over him like a hawk cause something feels off with him. And google isn’t helpful in the fact that I think he might be having seizures, but he’s never had any brain issues and I don’t know what would have brought on seizures.

I’m on the verge of tears right now though because I don’t know if this is all in my head and I’m overthinking and giving myself anxiety or if this is actually something to be concerned about. My fiance sees no difference in him but I’m with him all day everyday.

I am bringing this up to his doctor Thursday but I’m gonna go insane waiting until Thursday.