My baby was delivered at 34w5d and he’s been there almost 3 weeks, we’ve had three possible discharge days and each one has come and go, it’s been very discouraging and I’m the most depressed I’ve been in a long time, I don’t have the energy or will to do much on days where my 4 year old is with his grandparents or when my fiance is home I don’t even want to get out of bed and will only get up to pump and then it’s back to sleep. I’m still going up to see him every day and tomorrow I’m gonna be up there for 24 hours to room in. But I’ve had to request that I don’t get updated on him having events and that the nurses don’t tell me anymore possible discharge days and that the only time I here about discharge is if it’s actually happening and we need to start the process of getting discharged. On top of this I don’t feel bonded with him. Of course I still love holding him and feeding him and all that. But the bond between him and I feels close to nonexistent and it’s eating me alive. I don’t know what to do anymore.