I've never cared much for accolades, personal gain, or monetary wealth, I am just fine in spartan poverty but one thing I cannot live without is love. I don't know why I'm this way or what I did to be deemed unlovable but it's a punishment I can't live down, I refuse. I refuse to live life unloved any longer, I can't "hang in there" anymore I've reached my limit I cannot go much further being denied a basic human experience. I wish I could shake the world by the shoulders and ask "what is wrong with me?" but ultimately women don't care. I've been burning and writhing right in front of everyone's eyes and it's time to end the pain and suffering, I won't be able to live a life sentence of loneliness. I was here, I tried, and I would have loved like no one else. Goodbye and good luck to you all, no one deserves to live like this.