I know it’s not right to throw things and curse those shitty teammates after losing because of them, but 2k has made me toxic and my behaviour has affected myself.

I have been playing with randoms because I don’t have long-term friends to play with. I know the risk of playing with randoms is low win rate, which is acceptable and understandable. However, one thing I really can’t stand with is playing with low IQ teammates, such as those who think they can control the game with no skill and can’t find open teammates. We can lose but at least we play like a team and pass the ball to the right person to shoot. Playing with ball hoggers for me is fine because if they are really strong, they can take us to win the game.

Anyway, I was playing with a bunch of losers that can’t pass ball correctly, can’t find open teammates and just want to throw alley-oops. But, we had chance to win because the opponents were also very bad, they couldn’t shoot 3s and couldn’t do defence. However, my teammates only cared about alley-oops and couldn’t find the only one who can shoot 3s (me), we lost the game.

I am not being cocky or anything, I was shooting 4-4 before the third quarter started and I had many many many wide open, but they couldn’t find me or (didn’t want to pass). Other people shooting like 30% and kept turning over. We were supposed to win but lost in OT. If they passed the ball to me, we won’t have won the game easily. (I am a playshot against a paint beast). In the end even though I am a playshot and have the highest shooting percentage, I only shot 10 times in total) (8-10). I mean they shot 15 or more times with lower %, how the fuck they didn’t pass me the damn ball? I got at least 20 wide open in the game…

I was very angry and threw my controller. I really wanted to kill them. I was being violent because I have experienced it too many times for me to calm down.

I take every game very seriously because I can’t accept stupid lose. Losing is okay, but only if we play smart but still lose. This is how I think. Also, this is my 3rd lose in the row, which makes me more angry because I was supposed to end this and increase my win rate but because of them, I lost.

How do I adjust my mindset and how to think to make myself really accept the fact it’s just a game?