One of my main things I've been using to past the time-o, is Reddit. But after the protest over their stopping the use of 3rd party apps, it feels different. I was also on a spiritual discord server, and from a user received an invite to another server. Because of the drama between the creators, I was booted off of the first server, and later the second. So much for that. I hate drama and avoid it assiduously. Maybe they baned me to avoid drama, but that was cold, cruel, callous and cowardly. There was no communication, no warning. I was just looking to do some teaching and make some friends and got very attached to the server's creator. It hurts, I am sad. It wasn't romantic feelings I had for her, nor she for me as far as I could tell. She was the first person I opened up to in many years and to have that suddenly cut off has put me in a state of mourning. We had her taped, she was in the play.

I've seen now two fights inside the VOA shelter and one where they took it off the property. This last one on Memorial Day involved a staff member using a weapon! It would've been an easy situation to de-escalate but the staff members weren't the kind for that. The one guy loved saying the f-bomb and calling even white people nigger.He came at the client with what looked like a length of rebar, but it was the other staff member that swung first. The armed one had been a problem for a while, and had threatened me with a tire iron once amongst other insults and other provocative actions in an attempt to get a rise that would lead to a fight. In the fight before, all participants were gone within a week, same thing happened here. Some people can't leave behind the prison mentality and both of the staff members were ex-cons. Perhaps more training on how to deal with circumstances is highly in order.

So the BSS, sprung on me at the last minute that I needed to apply for unemployment. So far I've spent much more time trying to prove I didn't have a job versus needing to spend no time proving that I had one. Since I was self-employed as a subcontractor for an international company, which has resisted all of my efforts to obtain a statement that I no longer read for them. So I looked online to find an unemployment office to goto. I went there and it was closed up. I dug further online and found another place a bit further away that was by appointment only, In the meantime I lost my GA and had to go and beg the VOA at 1812 to let me stay. The trick with bureaucracies is to keep asking until you find the person that will say yes. So I had an appointment set up, and then when I got there the lady told me that we don't do that, that I had to get in the other line, to use there phones to call the call center since it doesn't work when people try calling from outside. I am beginning to think Jupiter Ascending underexaggerated bureaucracy. I could've gone there anytime and the website lied. They gave me my GA back without any of the documents demanded.
The same location houses DVR and the guy who did my intake told me that they would not provide me job training while I was on paper. It's not a written policy, just a prejudice his supervisors have the luxury of deciding. I shall see what my congressman and state represenitive has to say about it.

I'm just looking for the next great distraction as my life either falls to pieces or the pieces come together. Crumbs.

I was a little disappointed that my last top ten list has a few of the movies I had thought of are actually being made. I had originally had back to the future 4, but I found out that was coming out I replaced it and now I find out Beetlejuice 2 is coming out. So a few more proposals: Labyrinth 2, Pan's Labyrinth 2, Princess Bride 2, and Meet Joe Black, Again. Death and Taxes.

For my movie review I'd like to point everyone to Above the Shadows. It's about a girl who disappears shortly after her mother dies of cancer and the amazing adventures she has afterwards. To say much more would be a spoiler. It's a love story, but also a boxing story and has a supernatural element to it. Worth every minute. Watch it.

I finally read Liber Null and Psychonaught by Peter J Carroll, a must have for anybody serious about having a kaos magic book collection. I can't say that I agree with all of his conclusions, nor will I say that this is a must read as I'm sure newer books have been written with less dogma and more practicality. Nevertheless, I felt tuned in to some powerful mojo while reading it, more so that what I get out of most holy scriptures. The last chapter was perhaps the best, using a 3d diagram to illustrate knowledge vs power and advancement. It's still true today. Too much knowledge and not enough practices and one becomes an armchair magician. Too much power and not enough knowledge and it becomes very easy for delusion to set in. Delusion has been one of my big weaknesses in the past, hence the reason for my training Thursdays where I'm spending the day reading occult books and reviewing them here. This book I had meant to read many years ago and finally got around to it. The next review will be on the book that lead me to this one.

Top ten pet peeves of mine
10: Weather forecasts getting it wrong and I wind up needing a jacket, umbrella or shorts instead of jeans.
9: People when they message me online for help and then don't respond.
8: Getting other people's ringtones stuck in my head.
7: Rules for the sake of rules.
6: Bureaucratic paperwork nonsense to show they are busy.
5: Companies that do criminal background checks before they hire or sell to you.
4: Mass political and media projection; they are accusing the other side of doing exactly what they are doing.
3: Forum moderators when they enforce their own interpretation of the rules, regardless of the wording or intention. How are we supposed to know?
2: People when they want to learn something from me, but then expect me to do it for them.
1: Noisy eaters.