Hey as salamu alaykum everyone!

After seeing a few sincere posts the last few days, I thought I’d add my own into the mix. Like some of you, I’m religious and practicing, meaning, while I keep the fara’id, I also go above and beyond in many circumstances. As such, I’ve never dated or had zina, Alhumdulilah. Sadly, due to unforeseen circumstances, I wasn’t able to pursue marriage at an earlier age, but with great struggles comes growth and maturity. I can finally say that I’m in a good place, but having had to wait so long has made me a little more eager, so to speak. I have a professional job in a fantastic field, make good money, and look good, but finding sisters I’m compatible with, let alone attracted to, has been a very arduous process. Frankly, at this point I’m not sure if it’ll ever end, and zina really looks better with every passing day.

I surprise myself, sometimes. I’ve always had a very “open” view of the human body and sex, in general, while growing up. I don’t know how out of the ordinary I am, but I can masturbate several times a day, sometimes even 15x, without breaking a sweat. In addition, I can say I’m not vanilla, whatsoever. While penetration has its place, I feel there’s so so much more to explore, especially with an emphasis on foreplay and sex toys (vibrators, swings, etc.) and even other forms of sex (edging, cum play, etc.). The question is, will I find a religious girl who’ll be open to exploring, if not right away, eventually? It really is all about making sure the other person is on the right wavelength.

I know rizq is ultimately from Allah, but look at it from my perspective. Time is running out, choices are few, and I am losing opportunities to build beautiful memories. I hope I find someone compatible and soon, because it’s getting harder by the day to contain myself.

What suggestions would you guys have for me?