Isn’t it horrible when that happens? All your worst feelings come out of the darkness like wolves to feed. Especially for those of us with bad depression.

Last night was bad. I had been on NF for about a week or two. The loneliness of course was particularly bad. Porn, in all it’s evil, feeds on loneliness, as was the case last night

I browsed for a shameful number of hours until I lost control. It was a horrible night. What can you do? I feel filthy. My mental health is pretty bad right now. My iman is extremely low.

I’m posting this because there’s nothing I can do but get back up on the horse. Use this as a means to start fresh. My mental health is not good, but the one good thing is that after spending a night submerged in filth, I want nothing to do with it right now.

I’m rambling and none of this matters. Who am I, after all. Just venting…