i am around 35-40.. no marriage, no kids (dont want them).. but i cant live my life alone depressed, no friends either - still behaving like a teenager.. just work and then sleep.. i dont feel like this is the life i wanted..
if i was straight i would be like everyone else.. why is it that Allah has chosen this path for me.. people say its a test - fine, well you do the test and let me know how it goes - try not getting married all your life.. no intimate, no partner...
i wanna travel the world, but not alone - i m just venting as i am so frustrated.. i dont know what to do.. i cant stay single and i know i shouldnt have a 'male partner'.. even got married thinking allah will change/help me.. but that didnt work.. i didnt get those feelings and wasted few years.