Went to a transgender clinic yesterday, doctor said because I’m in good health and don’t have any history we can start before blood tests come back. This was a surprise to me, I hadn’t mentally prepared myself to walk home with the medicine that day.

Went into autopilot and drove to the pharmacy and grabbed my meds. Now I’m just staring at them, feel extremely nervous and anxious about taking them. I can’t tell if it’s the kind of nervousness I felt when I moved to college or started my first day of my post grad job; big changes that I’m happy I made. Or if it’s the kind of nervous that’s telling my to run from a bad thing. I’m pretty sure it’s the former but I just wanted to see if anyone else had nervousness/hesitation or if I should take this as some kind of sign.