I'm Bipolar II. Not the 'Fun Bipolar I' as some people describe it. I don't get super manic and go buy boats and etc. I get episodes of extreme depression and sadness for little to no reason at all. I'm in counseling and I see several doctors for my issues. With that out of the way--

In this episode all I feel like I want is to be absolutely fucking railed. Like really really rough sex. Tied up, pushed down, etc. I feel like I want someone to absolutely destroy me sexually. Now, I know this is absolutely not going to help, but hey a girl can dream. I get it now why so many women turn to just absolute carnage sex when depressed. I'm sure the oxytocin and endorphins would feel nice, but not exactly help my position. My wife and I have a very intimate relationship. We have sex, but we don't have sexy during depressive episodes. Mostly because for the two of us, sex is all about emotional connection and headspace. Connecting at a time like this would be a terrible idea. But I still wanted to get this off my chest.

Tl;dr: I'm bipolar II and am currently in a hypomanic episode. All I can think about is getting absolutely railed and fucked silly. I know it's unhealthy, but I understand what some women turn to it during depression now.

Edit: I appreciate the reports, but I promise I'm in no danger. I'm safe, medicated, and my wife is a licensed Social Worker.