My family is exceptionally shitty. They were toxic to begin with and I've always needed/felt the need to get away from them my whole life. I have one siblings and they have alot of potential to be understanding and just in life. But sadly due to my toxic parents and the manipulation(love to use the Bible to justify their whims), they struggle with alcohol it's really taken a toll on their life. They've been in jail, fought random people, often they are kicked out of places. Stores, Bars, even a local dispensery. I also used to drink with them I'm almost two years sober and haven't drinking specifically with them in like 4 years. I used to be dumb too. They are queer my siblings. This plays a large role.

I obviously, the cute lil trans girl(not as cute as I'd like) I am, just can't be around the shenanigans. So there's this real disconnect from family and it hurts. But I have nothing supplementing so to speak. I already feel like a burden on my partner at times. But that's from just growing up being told I was. I'm currently looking for a therapist. I know I need one.

What I'd really like tho is just some girl friends. I've tried a few times but never really with much of anything a few heys. I get it life is busy and we are more than just trans girls and don't always just wanna be seen that way so its hard. If that's the only common denominator between us. I'm very open tho, I have many interests and I love passionate people who really getbintonsharing their interests.

I'm located on the east coast ( 🇺🇸) Ive got 2 kitties, but they drive me crazy. I'm for sure not the typical cat mom My guilty pleasure is Fortnite. I'd say I'm laid back and easy going. Oh and I work a really crappy delivery job that makes me resent humanity often..lol mostly due to the fact that my coworkers are very right winged, and incredibly homophobic, most definitely transphobic. And I spend 98% of my days there so that's great. Please send help!!!

I hope everyone has a good night, honestly just putting it out there makes me feel.like I'm in much better space