I've never experienced true dysphoria with being Male. I tend toward having periods of time of just intense desires to express myself as a woman before it subsides and goes away for another few months. In my mind, this was always a fetish and my and I have experimented with me dressing up during sex, which has always been fun. I'm currently in the midst of one of these stretches and because it can be difficult for me to talk to even my wife about these feelings, I have bottled them up and dressed up in secret. Last night she asked me about it and I broke down. I've told her before, but I always brushed it off as a fetish. I'm still not sure if it's anything more, but having to have that conversation was one of the most difficult moments of my life. By verbalizing it, I wasn't just telling her, I was telling myself. I don't have much more to add right now, but I needed to vent and just write all of this down to get some feelings out.