The past couple weeks have seen me experience fluctuating levels of dysphoria, I guess. I'm not sure how I feel.

On one hand, I've always visualized myself as a woman in my head, preferred hanging out and felt more comfortable with girls, and sometimes wish I was born as a woman. I even have a feminine name picked out that I like, and a cis man wouldn't do that, right?

And yet, I feel fake. Like my dysphoria isn't real. That I'm just faking it, or that I'm just lonely and am making these feelings up to distract myself.

And today, right as I'm typing this, I feel like my chest is about to burst out of frustration. I don't know how to feel, or if I can even trust my feelings.