I’m done with everything. Done with life. Done with being treated like shit.

I’ve spent the last month in absolute bliss, because I went full time. I got my taxes done and will be getting enough to legally change my name, drivers license, social security, birth certificate. Everything. Work is going well. Everything is fine.

Except my family. And boy do they know how to fucking ruin everything.

I was woken up this morning (on my only day off this week) to my mom “needing a favor, that will make you unhappy”. I said “ok?” So she said “I have a potential guy coming over that could be a date or something in the future. Will you just be my son while he’s here?” I said very sternly “no”. So she said “why not?” And I said as it was obvious “I’m not your son”.

That sent her off the edge of the planet. She said that she does so much for me, she LETS me dress how I want. She helps makes sure I have a roof over my head and she always has to throw in that when I was unemployed she provided for me.

So we argued about pity semantics and shit. Then as she’s fuming around she throws this gem while talking to my brother but being loud enough so I can hear, (YALL BETTER GRAB ON TO SOMETHING FOR THIS BECAUSE IT MADE ME FURIOUS.)

“I had a discussion with a friend and we came to the same conclusion that all LGBTQ are selfish. They all expect everyone to respect only their wishes and have no concern with the people in their lives they are also affecting”

Ummmm EXCUSE ME!??? What the actual fuck?

So because I am trans and ask AS A COURTESY for her to call me Emma and her daughter, I’m the one being selfish? After she just asked me to just be her son FOR A FUCKING POTENTIAL DATE?????

Whatever this cunt means nothing to me anymore. I’ve given her way too many chances, and now she’s permanently going to lose her child. She’s right she’s going to bury her son. But will she be able to live with guilt that she killed her son too, just because she couldn’t accept the fact that her son was actually her daughter.

Fuck you mom.

EDIT 10:41pm est

I’m still here. Honestly not doing any better. But y’all are great people, wanting to help me. 💖