(I'm turning 17 next week and I'm Dutch, in case that info matters)

I'm kinda questioning where exactly I fit in on the entire spectrum, but I think I might actually be a girl. I'm not sure of anything at all at the moment. I'm quite feminine, I'm openly pansexual, I have long hair, I get mistaken for a girl kinda often. I just don't really know whether I'm actually trans or not. I don't experience quite as much dysphoria as most people, I didn't really show all the "signs" when I was younger...

I don't know if I would be able to commit to this very well either. I'm afraid to commit to it before I'm absolutely sure but I probably won't ever be. I kinda just think, is it really possible for me to become who I believe I am supposed to be? I have a deep voice, broad shoulders, am fairly tall, have a pretty thick jaw (and a huge head).

I'm kinda very afraid, and have no idea where to go from here. Sorry if this is all very rambly, I just hope someone can provide me a little insight on what the hell everything I'm feeling is.