So, to clarify I'm a NB transfem, but one day I hope to come out as a woman. Previously, I regarded myself as sapphic but...

Last night I had a wet dream, first in ages. Or really multiple wet dreams, since dreams only last a dozen minutes or so.

But I'll give you guys the short version since I already shared with my friends but their reactions were pretty dry or non-existent. I kind of want SOMEONE to share this excitement/shock with.

Up until now I've been male, masculine presenting in all. I don't even correct people when they misgender me, and I'm only out to my family rn. I only present female online, although I'm getting more and more fem everyday. Just to give you guys a quick snapshot of where I am in my transition.

Previously, I had believed that I was non-binary... Still a bit resistant to being 100% a feminine identity cause of my relationship with my genitals. I didn't have bottom dysphoria, in fact I'm quite the addict plus I've been attracted to women my whole life.

To my surprise... I was female (ALL female), married to a MAN at that. It was sweet too, we were genuinely in love. Yet I can't even remember his name lol... But it was the first time I ever had sex as a bottom or– well, imagined and enjoyed sex as a bottom.

Did my brain conjure the sensation of a vagina? I could feel him inside of me?? And it was good... I've barely enjoyed anal until now yet my brain somehow can make a fully functioning vagina?! My other dream had a 2 on 1... I was the one.

Attraction to men... Blowjobs... Vaginal pleasure...

I was so high on euphoria when all these memories came flooding back to me. Even more than that we were an older couple, who had kids?? Which means... Childbirth, motherhood? All the things I was certain about just went into questioning. I know as you transition, your sexuality and preferences gradually change but.

This was so unexpected...