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My experience after a little over a month on hrt is way different. Adjusting to the new hormones is difficult. I am super tired and I deal with more intense anger and sadness than before. I feel like I should mention that I am in the middle of a very bad depression and likely also have some undiagnosed cptsd. I have no doubt that taking hrt is right for me but I do find it a bit discouraging how the overwhelming majority on this subreddit seem to have had an experience of things just “clicking” very early on. Has my impression just been skewed by the kind of posts that do well on here, or is that experience truly the norm? Whenever someone makes a post like that 95% of comments are people sharing similar stories. I had kind of internalised it and hoped for a similar experience but in some ways things have gotten even harder. I also feel like my dysphoria is more intense since I am no longer looking at the potential of how I could look in the future, but rather how I actually look in the moment. Idk I am just a little bummed out and I would really love to hear from girls who have gone through a similar experience with hrt!
Sorry if this post is a downer. I do have a lot of hope for the future, things just kinda suck right now.
Edit: thank you all so much for your replies! They have been really helpful in making me feel less alone and have made my day quite a bit better ♥️
HRT is not a cure all, especially for depression. <3
I would describe the haze/fog lifting as a double edged sword. My highs are incredible highs that I never touched before I transitioned into a woman. I love life, I take care of my body, I feel free to embrace hobbies I wouldn't have before, my relationships are better, etc etc.
However my lows are also the lowest I've been. I lost a few friends, I'm much more emotional and sensitive now, I get fairly lonely, I had to give up a few things that meant allot to me, my anxiety increased, and at times my depression got worse.
I think when allot of people realized things "clicked," they mean specifically things about their gender identity. Sure, some things clicked immediately for me too, but I also think they're just remembering or thinking about the good/great things and forgetting the other realities about being a trans person.
Being emotionally in touch means that your positive AND your negative emotions are felt much more. Being tired/fatigued might be a symptom of your HRT. If it continues I'd speak to your doctor, but also keep in mind that your body is changing. Not the normal amount of change it's come to expect and prepare for, but it is slowly rewriting what it's supposed to be doing. It needs to get used to this being the new norm, and while it does, the fatigue will likely continue.
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