I'm 25m, been thinking about starting hormone blockers, mostly want to stop my "second puberty" before it gets too much, I grew up excited for body hair and a beard but nowa days I am physically disappointed in how I look with body hair and end up shaving everything. There's days I don't mind my facial hair, but I love how fem I look without it.

I really enjoy "feminizing" myself, it makes me feel pretty, but struggle going out dressed up feminine because I know I look physically like a man. I love dressing up at home where I feel safe, but find myself having dysphoria when trying makeup, due to "looking masculine" it feels wrong.

I tell myself I wouldn't want boobs but I'd love to pass as female, but I think that's because I don't want them if I can't pass.Do you ever tell yourself you don't want boobs, or don't want to wear makeup because you feel those are things for people who can pass?

Maybe I'm not fully mtf trans, definitely have some self discovery to do, but I'd love to hear any thoughts or personal experiences!