I've been on hrt for pushing 7 years now. Spiro killed my sex drive for the longest(to the point where I considered myself ace) but I recently upped my dose of prog because I wasn't happy with my breast growth. It's also had the common side effect of increasing my libido and quite honestly I don't even think I'm ace anymore. But when I'm in that mood I seem to suffer a severe disconnect from my arousal due to my parts. It's like, I can't fully engage with the feelings in the way I want because of that disconnect. It's like a mental block that makes it all feel wrong. Does this go away when you get bottom surgery? Is this a common experience? The only way I can work my way around it is to seemingly disconnect myself as much as I can and imagine myself with the right setup. This sucks because I feel like it straight up takes me out of the intimacy with my partner when I want to be present with her appreciating the moment. Any feedback or advice is appreciated. I'm having a really hard time dealing with this and honestly feel guilty for having to disconnect like that when I'm with my partner. I try to focus more on her pleasure and that gets me through but naturally whenever she reciprocates it feels like I can't enjoy it the way I should and that saddens me deeply. Anyways, thanks to anyone who took the time to read my rambling and respond <3