"But the thing I'll never admit to anyone who's met me is how desperately I want to be loved, I don't think I could say it. How I want someone tohold my wrists and kiss my palms and smile at me, and want me, I want to be wanted and I don't know how long poetry or songs will substitute for being wanted." -chaandajaan, tumblr

This stupid quote hit me like a ton of bricks when I read it, because it's how I feel all the time in the dating world. This is something I feel so deep inside of me, I'm surprised it hasn't clawed me to pieces yet. No one I've met has every wanted me this way, not even my past partners, and they've always left because my asexuality leaves them wanting more than I can offer.

Sometimes I want to disappear.