So I'm 32 and have been basically procrastinating the idea of being trans for most of my life because the thought of it terrified me. Only lately after really examining myself for the last few months and talking with some transfem folks am I starting to come around to the realization that this is probably for real, and now the weight of how much time I've wasted NOT pursuing this is starting to hit and I feel overeager to jump in. I've got my first appointment with a gender affirming therapist tomorrow, which already feels like a huge step as someone who's never done therapy and was incredibly anxious about even the idea of opening up to someone about all this irl.
But what I'm wondering is at what point should I begin the process of starting HRT? I've read all these posts about how just being on estrogen has made so many trans women feel better and less anxious even before changes are apparent, and I'm so curious to see what it actually feels like that I kinda want to schedule an appointment with Planned Parenthood already to at least get the ball rolling. Would it be a bad idea to do this before I've done a few weeks/months of therapy first and really talked through all this?