I feel so hopeless at the moment. HRT was so wonderful for me, it did so much to make myself feel like me. And mentally i never felt so good. But pretty soon when i started the headaches began. Horrible migraines and tension headaches kept coming an getting worse. Soon the days i have to lay in the dark in bed full of pain become more then days where i can live my life. Doctors say my body needs to get used to the estrogen and it will get better. 2 years later and it hasn't gotten better. Only worse. I also started Progesteron (so i could stop t-blocker, that helped a bit with the headaches) .... but now i get bad heartburn and a bloated stomach everyday. My Prolactin got also very high since i started it. (I read that kills Libido and causes depression which is both true for me, but also was before)

I have been to tons of doctors and asked alot of trans people and trans agencies. But I guess i can't have HRT. I don't wanna go back, i changed so much to the positive and i don't know my fragile mental health can take that. I am already in a very bad mental state. All i wanted was to be a cute girl in life, but i guess i asked for to much.