Cute hot face, white with blue eyes, dark shorter full soft hair, well groomed short but full beard that can be shaved. Lean 5' 10" 150 lbs and can put on muscle pretty fast but will lean into your preference.

Willing to share pics of myself to see if there's mutual attraction early but I care far more about finding someone sweet, warm, affectionate and nurturing, and I love mombods and stuff.

"Intro:
I've been dealing with a chronic pain disorder and only relatively recently have I gotten it manageable enough to where it wasn't the focus of my life, I look after myself and my health has shown enough improvement to where I believe I'll make a complete recovery, and I'm making big strides in my life right now, but I'd been afraid and too conscious of myself to put myself out there, but I read this comment that talked about people that just like caring about other people and to shoot your shot, so here goes.

What I'm looking for:
The thing that has given me by far the most meaning in my life is my very close relationship with my relatively recently late Dachshund that I raised since childhood named Sookie. I loved taking care of her. It was easier to do things for her than for myself. I got a lot of "do it for her" energy from her. And there were times it felt like she was the only thing getting me through. She emanated warmth like a little space heater, and it stoked me inside. Whenever I needed comforting snuggling up with her would warm me to my core. I derived a sense of value for myself from her love, and I feel lesser now. She was home, and wherever she was. She showed me what was good in life and what really matters. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. The best part about me.

Seeing her never failed to give me a rush of dopamine and remind me of how lucky I was.

And I have come to terms with my grief. And I want to find that with someone.

With how sometimes I felt stunted with my nerve issues, sometimes I felt undeserving of love, but her love was truly unconditional. It didn't matter how I felt I looked, or that I felt stunted, all that mattered was that she loved me and I loved her.

I feel a bit conflicted talking about her openly but she was and is such a huge part of me, and she played an instrumental role in who I am today, and I do want to share her memory.

I want to find someone who is nurturing and to encourage me in figuring it all out, and willing to accept me right now. I'm going to keep progressing and improving my health either way but someone could really make a difference in my recovery.

Someone doesn't need to be or do all of the the following stuff by any means but these are just some of my favorite qualities and things I'd really like. Some of it is synonymous but I figured the right person wouldn't mind and might like hearing this stuff as much as I do.

Someone really accepting, very physically affectionate, wants to be around each other and hold one another a lot, basking in one another's warmth and affection, soft sweet warm, like a soft hug that totally envelops you, encourages me to do my best, nurturing, safe, gentle soul, mothering, caregiver personality, big heart, shower each other with affection, playful, joined at the hip, cuddle and rub and kiss her all day, Maternal, Motherly, Mommy gf, caresses me and likes being caressed, safe, gentle, soothing, caring, feels emotions strongly, dotes on me, loves animals, comforting, like a sweet warm mum, plays games and watches stuff with me, right by eachother's side, smothers me to death in her pillowy warmth and softness.

Like cute little animals you just want to take home and take care of them, I want someone I feel like that about and feels like that about me. Open-minded. Very considerate of others. Likes to be comforted like I've yearned for at times. Being in a soft girl's embrace is like my happy place/comfort zone/safe space I could live there like a baby koala or if my partner had a pouch like a momma kangaroo in there lol. Her soft body like a stress ball and warm blanket out of the dryer to melt away any tension and soothe me with. Kneading her like dough and being enveloped by her softness.

Having a lot of skinship with each other,
her giving me affection, cuddling me, playing with my hair, lap pillows, rubbing my back, kissing my head, letting me burrow my face in her softness, doting on me, reassuring me, caring for me, letting me call her mommy, with like a tone of maternal love to it, and then me reciprocating it all for her.

I like doing stuff out of the house too, but I view home as like our own little bubble of warmth and love curated with our favorite things, but also if I'm with Mommy I'm home. And I would love if our mutual preferred state of being was together. Even if we're doing our own thing just enjoying each other's presence.

When hurting I've self soothed a lot by fantasizing about a sweet warm affectionate nurturing mommy and touching myself to mombods.

I swear I'm not always this mushy lol and have independent and confident sides to my personality too. And I like banter/teasing, and try to have a laugh most of the time, so it's more than okay if you have a mischievous side too.

About me:

I really like games as a social medium, and playing off other people and playing stuff you can have fun with friends in. And I like watching high quality stuff like that. I'll watch friend groups who have been close friends for years who have really good chemistry play multiplayer/co-op/party games together, and high quality game RP like in RD2. And would love to play stuff with you.

I like reading, watching, and playing a lot fiction in part for the sake of expanding my imagination. I like to try to entertain the room, and try to make things a good time. I love animals and nature.

Novelty doesn't appeal to me near as much as building up a connection with something, it makes me feel so much stronger about it, and makes everything feel so much richer. I feel strongly about bonds formed with those who were there when you really needed it.

My top love languages by far are quality time and physical touch. And I like doing stuff for my partner. I feel like one of my main special interests is quality time and doing stuff with close ones, and take interest in their interests. Like play games and watch stuff together, go on walks talking about anything, roast marshmallows, go to an apple orchard, build a pillow fort, I mostly just want to do stuff with those close to me, it's not so much what I'm doing as who I'm doing it with.

I'd love learning all about my partner and pebbling them. Trying to be in tune with how my partner is feeling and keenly aware of what they want is something that really matters to me, as my partner, and as I want my partner to be my best friend. And it would be evident just how smitten I am with her. Nothing would be more important than our love. I want to take care of the caregiver, and rise to the occasion for her.

There's these videos I've seen enough to where it almost feels like it's own genre, of like a woman nursing like a flying fox, or a wombat back to health, or consoling a squirrel, and part of me always wants to be the little critter.

When I come across like high-school sweethearts that are still always doting on each other and have built up such a meaningful connection I really wish that was me, and think I would've been someone who ended up partnered up pretty young if my chronic pain disorder hadn't reared it's head.

I feel a lot of yearning but have a strong general sense of well-being despite things in my life. I love being affectionate for the sake of it, like snuggling and giving rubs. I wanna be like a pair of otters holding hands as they sleep so they don't drift away from each other. I like taking care of my appearance. I've been told I'm a good listener and communicator, and I try to be very conscious of others. I love taking care of loved ones. And I want to make someone's life better and easier.

Kink Stuff:

I think I'm looking for more Mommy than Domme, or gentle domme, especially outside the bedroom where I'd like an affectionate tone to the relationship, but I think if it was from someone where it was coming from a place like that I'd be more than happy. I'd like things like being able to defer to your judgement, and you being my guiding light, and like a Mother Hen toward's me, and learning what you like and want and anticipating your needs and earning being Mommy's good boy.

I'm a switch, but I could lean either way with encouragement, or depending on your mood

Some kink stuff I like are nursing handjobs, pussy eating, facesitting, praise, cockwarming, body worship, tease and denial, roleplay, breeding play, soles.

When it comes to kink stuff I feel pretty open-minded, imaginative, and pliable, like I could be lead by my second head to see what's hot about most things and indulge someone by getting into something.

Conclusion:

And while I really wish I already had everything sorted out I realized love could give me all the more encouragement to do so, and what matters most to me by far in a partner is for them to be kind and warm and accepting, and someone who'd accept me right now would be, and I could really use somebody who really cared about me like that right now.

Thanks for reading. I tried for Mommy. I got a bit misty-eyed writing this so hopefully it wasn't too too sappy. I tried to pour heart into it and I hope that came across and that something in what I wrote spoke to you. Hope to hear from you and I will get back to you