Hiya,

I'm Owen, I'm an indie video game director, and I'm a sub :p

I'm looking for something pretty serious so, and I hope you don't mind, I'm gonna make this really long lmfao. First section about myself, second section about my kink-related interests. I'm in the Portland area, but am not against relocation. Open to discussing anything. :o I am VERY strictly monogamous, and would prefer to keep age range between 23-30 c:

Here's a few pics of me :) trying to get up to 125lbs, 5'7''

And this time I'm adding a pic of some of my art. Some of it's pretty old but I can't show everything I'm working on quite yet for NDA reasons...

I do art (pixel art and am gradually improving pencil/ink pen traditional, eventually aiming to become proficient with painting), writing, and general game design/direction (I suck at paperwork). I really, really enjoy it c: and I can confidently say that I've found my intended long term career, though as a backup I've considered teaching in some form. I have a single cat named Hannah that I absolutely love above all else, though she's getting old :(. I'm a quiet, shy, but passionate and curious guy - I like seeing things reach their full potential, I highly value loyalty and authenticity, and I would like to think that I have a pretty good grasp on what I like, what I don't like, and what's important to me. My favorite time of day is 4am to 7am, since it's nice and quiet, peaceful, and usually a little brisk. I love forests, mountains, and fog above all else. Vastly prefer too cold to too hot. I work from home and plan to keep it that way, so my schedule is extremely flexible. And I can... take a lot of naps :').

I'm a huge fan of video games. I play a handful of multiplayer titles but I'm most interested in singleplayer gameplay-oriented stuff like Bloodborne, Metal Gear, Fallout New Vegas, Skyrim, Baldur's Gate, Bioshock, and a very wide swathe of indie games. I've made a hobby of studying games to try and pick up design notes for my own projects, so there are a lot of games I've played all the way through in order to get the full picture (despite thinking that they weren't... great, lol). I consider games as art forms to the likes of a movie or book, though with unique qualities, but also keep them at an arm's distance as my creative passion, not as my life. I realize it's kind of spooky to say that I focus so much on what's commonly thought of as a negative habit, but the games that typically prioritize making addictive tendencies a forefront of the design (gacha games, multiplayer "daily task" types, infinite round-based systems) are not what I try and engage with except for hanging out with buddies.

I'm a huge fan of cosmic horror, cyberpunk, sci fi, Western, high fashion, and avant garde aesthetics. Anything that's got an original twist to it is something I try to appreciate - slight hint of magic, little bit of luck, dash of corny, is just like the nice seasoning on a good tri-tip... I'm not a huge movie guy but I love LOTR, Wes Anderson, The Princess Bride, Mad Max, and Akira. Blade Runner is great, I was a huge Star Wars: The Clone Wars fan as a kid. I don't watch many tv shows or any anime but I really enjoyed Cowboy Bebop, Chernobyl, True Detective, and Attack on Titan. Got a big list of shows to catch up on though, so maybe we can work through that sometime? I'm pretty flexible when it comes to music! I like something from everything, but I'd say I'm most interested by synthwave/darkwave, late 90s/00s rap, and whichever of my playlists I decide to exclusively listen to on any one week. I mostly like everything with interesting bass :> For metal related, I like speed/powermetal.

I don't crush or harm bugs intentionally. I think all lifeforms are fellow voyagers, despite their perceived simplicities. I think the goal of all human interaction should be to find peaceful resolutions to problems that have no good fixes. I think nuance and collection of information before a conclusion are very attractive qualities. I think being calm and deescalating tensions is a hugely superior way of handling things to "trying to get things done" and "pushing through". I don't like assigning people to any particular identity without having fully explored their understanding of things, and I don't like being assigned myself. Life is really complex at times, really simple at others, and in the in-betweens, you just gotta take the options that keeps things cool for everyone.

Section 2 (LOL)

As for a relationship o:

I would like to fully commit to you once we've had a few years together, and I can understand what you're like during bad times, in bad places, and I can trust that you've got the full picture on me in turn. That committal would be an iron weld that solidifies what can be considered "my soul" to yours. I'm not "religious", per-se, but I am spiritual in the sense that I believe in an afterlife of some variety, and my greatest desire would be to see you there, both literally and in terms of making sure you come to a place of happiness and rest for the present, for the near future, and for the potential eternal future. I think of life as being very difficult, exhausting, saddening, but ultimately meaningful and something I consider a necessary, inspiring, and reassuring preparation for... whatever comes afterwards. That journey is something I am so, so desperate to find help on, and to help with. It's LONELY, and it's hard, I think for most people. I don't enjoy the idea of sailing across a hostile sea, as beautiful as it is, without ever finding someone to hold and be held by. I am monogamous, believe it or not.

As for more uh, not insane-sounding things, I love cuddling lol! I'm super touch-oriented. I show love with massages, doting, just trying to be as helpful as I can. I'm very interested in a more house-husband based role, but am open to any reasonable arrangement. I've flirted with the idea of total power exchange/more classical dominance, and it's something I'm super excited by the thought of, but it's also pretty logistically complicated, so I'd want to discuss that quite a bit to get common understandings (but seriously, if that's what you're looking for, I'm down). I'm planning on being more than financially self-sufficient with my game dev career, no desires of being a leech. That said, would never turn down a complete nuclear family gender roleswap (okay at this point I should just say I'm openminded to any relationship format). I like quiet moments together, gentle caressing, firm, enveloping hugs.

Pressure is the sensation that drew me most to BDSM. Slightly quirky interest, but anything that applies pressure and closeness (bondage, restraints of any kind, smothering, mummification, just good old fashioned aggressive cuddling) is what I love most. I've got a Venn diagram overlap of artistic, sexual, and aesthetic interest in fetish fashion (latex, leather, harnesses, what have you), and all of that includes some aspect of tightness, shapewear, form-fitting stuff, that I'd like to integrate into my wardrobe to tasteful levels (not trying to scare anyone). I consider arousal as inherent of an emotion as sadness/anger, and am very comfortable maintaining arousal for long periods of time and as a component of day to day life. I think sexuality is super underappreciated as a boon to the enjoyment of our time on Earth, so it's not something I really care to deny myself. If were living together, I'd love it if you came in and checked in on me after lunch, wrapped me in your arms, squeezed me tight, and we cuddled quietly for a few minutes in my desk chair as I was in the middle of drawing for work. Sex as a concept is a... human thing, for me, not a quick and dirty sort of explosive interaction. Realistically I'm not as keen on "fucking" as most would be but somehow still have a really strong libido, so, take that as you will. I'm always down to talk about it.

Kinks!

I'm down for the majority of usual stuff (bondage, any restraints, petplay, servitude, edging, humiliation, etc.). I care most about what you enjoy, and I think any reasonable partner I'm with would probably be interested in the reverse. You don't like something I do? That's okay, I don't need it that badly probably, we don't have to do it. You want to do something I don't like? Make it a punishment for me! If I like it, it's not a punishment anyways, right? Ask me anything :)

You got all the way down here! Wow lmao! I swear I'm not as nuts as I sound :< Thank you so much for reading. Hope your day is going good :)

My limits are extreme pain, blood, ageplay, feet, scat [ugh just feels gross to type] and anal in the licking sense. Just doesn't seem hygienic to me. Monogamous so nothing involving others outside the relationship.