Throw away account because of reasons.

Hey I'm 23, 6ft 4 (195cm) and a sweet innocent cute faced guy with red cheeks and great thick hair. I have broad-ish shoulders and a fairly athletic build, I have green eyes and brown hair in the winter but blonde hair in the summer. I have well-formed hands that are buttery soft and rich with veins.

I have a variety of outfits because I like to look good, I keep myself clean and like to exercise. Personality wise I am friendly and happy on the surface, I would describe my personality as natural excitement, am very interested in others and their goals and dreams and am always supportive. When it comes to my own hard work and achievements I can be a deep thinker and planner and often spend time alone while I focus on something. Some things I like are animals, travelling, documentaries, books, manga, I spend my free-time writing, reading, baking and adventuring with friends.

Ideally I am looking for a relationship out of this rather than just a play partner. My ideal type is someone kind and smart and would want to be controlling, clingy and possessive. But honestly it does get dark.

I believe my needs are simple but kind of scary, to most.

I wouldn’t expect even the small majority to understand, but for those that have held themselves back in a relationship, for fear for their partners mental health, or because of their own toxicity, this post might be for you.

I am a sub who would describe themselves as having a hard shell. But under the surface, I’m an extremely submissive free-use toy.

If you’ve ever been worried you’re overbearing in a relationship or clingy, then you might just be my type.

My ideal partnerwould be someone who could tap into being unhealthily clingy. I’ve experienced it once with a woman, and its the only thing that I can still think about that makes my heart throb. Nothing would fill me with more submissive joy than to receive 50 text messages in an hour. Or several missed phone calls. This isn’t just me wanting to feel powerful, and like girls are chasing me, it’s actually the opposite. I want to feel trapped. My heart would throb even more if my partner didn’t let me go to the toilet myself, and she had to follow me. Or if you handcuffed your wrist to mine when we sleep so I couldn’t run off in the night.

Don’t apologise for being clingy. If clingy is who you are, then you can embrace it with me. The more clingy you are, the more I will like you.

If I haven’t snuggled deeper into you in the past 2 minutes and you want to get angry at me, then get angry at me.

Another ideal trait for my mommy would be into consensual non-consent for their sub.

I said earlier I’m a free use toy. My body will be yours more than mine. With consensual non-consent, you can do anything you want to me whenever you feel like it without having to ask or seduce. If we’re watching TV and you want to put your hand down my pants, or spit in my hair, or you want to finger yourself and put that finger in my mouth, then you can do it. Or if I’m sleeping and you want to taste and suck my dick even though I’m unconscious, then you can do it. You don’t need to ask or worry yourself. Or maybe even you want to make me so drunk that I blackout so you can ride my dick and get creampied while I’m out cold. You can do that too. I want you to do all these things and more when I’m you’re free use toy.

Combining clinginess with consensual non-consent, maybe you are someone with a love language of touch. You wouldn’t ever have to worry about being overbearing, you can let your hair down with me. If you’d feel better at night sleeping with my dick in your hand, or my dick in your mouth, or my mouth on your boob, or your fingers in my ass, or anything like that, then you can do that.

In my last relationship, I was described as someone who finds it difficult to keep my voice under control, and also shakes like a scared kitten when being made to feel good. I’m having to live with these urges to be used and abused in distasteful ways.

I have tried to ignore them but ultimately I am not satisfied or happy in a relationship.

If you’re living with your urges to use and abuse in the ways I’ve described, then maybe we’ll make a good pair.

As I said before, I have a hard shell, so nobody in my life that I know would expect this from me. I will continue to have a hard shell as that is who I am, and on the surface it may look like we have a vanilla relationship. I don’t really know what my point is, but maybe this will reassure you if you’re scared of your urges but can’t resist following them. Nobody would know, but inwardly, you can be yourself with me.

This has been a ramble because I’ve never posted anything like this, but if I have no luck, I will keep searching this in the future.

Obvious turn offs are: blood, gore, scat, piss, vomit, violence, bestiality, anything illegal etc.

My kinks are extensive but I’ll share all I can think of for now: cnc, mommy-domme, femdom, breastfeeding, praise, clinginess, reassurance, regression, coercion, forced-regression, manipulation, lying, gaslighting, corruption, humiliation, degradation, dumbification, tpe, 24-7, free-use, teasing, edging, orgasm control, orgasm denial, begging, facesitting, worshipping, full-body-worship, gooning, triggering, hypnosis, mindbreak, consensual-non-consent, milking, body-writing, cum-stealing, creampies, drunk sex (drunk/blacked out sub, sober dom), sleeping sex (awake dom, sleeping sub), pegging, prostate massage, rimming, bondage, handcuffs, collar & leash, using mommy, mommy-cum-dump,

If this post has disgusted you, I’m sorry. But there is someone out there who will see this and needed to have seen it.