This may not be the right subreddit for this, if so I apologise. It is monogamous and long-term, but not exactly the default of relationship. But I am looking for a platonic, close relationship with a dominant, gentle motherly woman that could become romantic if we are right for each other.

I (m20s) have a problem.

I normally would not write a post like this but a good friend suggested I get some help here.

I have autism, and for a few other reasons I am very anxious about the topic of sex, to the point where I cannot even discuss it verbally without debilitating anxiety. This is causing me further worry as I would like to get married one day. I can talk about it via textual communication (such as this) but in real life I cannot do it.

What I am looking for is to learn to be comfortable talking about sex in an academic, matter-of-fact sort of way, in a one-on-one environment, with a woman – as I will need to be able to do this to get married in the future. I do not really imagine this post will have any success, but I am hoping to find a dominant, motherly woman of a similar age to me, or a bit older, who is positive about talking about sex verbally. Who will lead me like a mother would, and build up my confidence - and if we form a romantic relationship out of it, even better.

TO BE PERFECTLY CLEAR. I am not looking for sexting or anything to incur arousal or lust, nor anything casual, I want to build a relationship with you so I feel safe, I will never ask for video chatting or photographs either. I just want to get to a point of normalcy and a shot at future happiness with a lovely dominant wife.

If anyone is interested in helping me, please message me.

About myself:

• I am a nerd
• I like gaming
• Crafts and building things
• I have anxiety
• I think I am a switch, but I am also a virgin so who can say? I do very much have a thing for motherly women though.
• I am a Christian, and I aspire to teach theology and philosophy, in an amateur sense.

Please be kind to me, miss, I am rather nervous writing this, haha.

Thank you.