So I am a mommy. (Duh lol). I met this sub. He was..amazing. I fell in love. Short while later because I have been off my meds (back on now just takes 2 weeks to regulate emotional swings) I messed up. I allowed one of my moods to dictate how I treated him.

For full context; I am 35 he’s younger and in his 20s. Handsome and funny. We’ve been talking for some time, and I tried to break up with him. However, while internally, I did not want to leave him, my illogical mind definitely took over and wanted him to grovel. After speaking with my therapist, she advised me that I should be completely transparent since being with him has been such a safe space . So I came clean about my emotional manipulation . he decided that he was no longer interested in pursuing anything with me especially because it seemed that I was OK to cause him emotional pain, which he does not wish to endure.

Yes I’m horrible, yes I feel like shit. I ruined what could have been the healthiest relationship I’ve ever been in.

This just happened this morning. I haven’t been able to rest or feel OK since I’ve never felt this way about anyone before. I just wanna know what are the odds of him coming back? Do we still have a chance? Should I give him space? I’m trying not to spiral but it’s hard…I just wish I’d never told him the truth. I know that sounds shitty but maybe I should have kept that side of my hidden? Idk what to do.. Since he and I met on this platform I thought I’d ask for advice here.

Sincerely, heartbroken.