early 20s F. i’ve been married a little over two years, and i actually don’t have any regrets about that particularly. i love my husband so much and i don’t feel like marriage itself is what’s held me back in life.

he graduated college this april, and we moved so he could pursue his army career. i feel like this move was SO good for me personally, i met some great people, and have a much more positive outlook on the move many of my friends also went through, which has helped me immensely.

the only thing is, it’s nearly impossible for me to find a decent job where we live. so i’m a stay at home wife right now. i have a little over one semester left, but it’s online so it doesn’t really feel like full time college. so i try to pull my weight by learning to cook (which i haven’t done for most of our marriage) and cleaning, and all sorts of things like that.

when we were both in college, i worked full time and was the primary breadwinner, on top of going to school full time. husband worked part time and had some programs that gave him money. but i was by far the primary breadwinner.

anyways, now i feel like i’ve basically sacrificed so many of my dreams for his. i uprooted my life to move, i didn’t get a ton of the college experience (by that i mean like going to classes in person, or dedicating myself fully to school) because i was busy working for us, and now i really don’t have any direction.

we’re moving to germany in the spring, so i know my career aspects aren’t going to improve. i just hate being fully financially dependent on husband, so early on in life. it’d be one thing if we had kids, more rewarding.

i just feel like i’m letting my younger self down by being a help-meet who has no accomplishments of my own. even graduating college this april myself, doesn’t feel like a huge a accomplishment because due to being so busy for a majority of it, my GPA is shit. on top of that, i probably won’t walk graduation, because it’ll be too expensive to fly back to the state my college is in.

thank you for reading all this, any advice appreciated <33