I spent my 27th birthday in the ICU due to some serious medical issues. My sister took me to brunch today as a gift, and told me about how when our mom goes to her house, she talks poorly of me and talks about how I am a burden.

I have:

Type 1 Diabetes PCOS Hepatic Adenomatosis Systemic Lupus Erythematosus Migraines with aura Rumination Syndrome Gastroparesis Fibromyalgia hEDS HS

There's more than that but just to give a small idea of what my medical situation is.

My mom couldn't get me from the hospital because she had a "headache". She always asks me to get things for her even though she is fully capable of going to the store on her own.

I know this isn't a coherent post but... having your mother talk behind your back, consider you a burden AND try and take advantage of you all in one is a hard thing to deal with.

I feel like I am always going to be a burden, if my own mother considers me one, why wouldn't anyone else?

Feeling really down and out about myself right now.

EDIT: My sister and I were discussing our narcissistic mother. I told my sister that my mom says things like, "She should have waited to move out" regarding my sister because I wanted her to know the truth. I don't believe my sister told me this to make me feel bad, I've always asked her to be honest with me regarding our parents because they are very toxic.

I wish I could move out but I cannot financially do so at this moment. My medicines are so expensive. Going to the ICU is not cheap. I feel so broken, so lost, so numb, and so empty.