Does it not occur to him that my body is breaking trying to keep us above water?

Does it not occur to him that 6 months without any intimate touch is breaking my mind?

That expecting me to make every decision and follow up on them is slowly driving me towards a cliff?

That 13 years of love and connection and help and heart, and money and time has been spent on him to got to where he is today?

That watching me panic so hard I can't breathe, isnt appropriate to be answered with 'I need to go get my food.'

That begging for help isn't something that someone should need to do with someone they love?

That aching for closeness and comfort shouldn't be a perpetual state for someone?

That breaking my body to stop my mind from crushing itself isn't healthy and shouldn't be encouraged.

That I'm so so lost and hurt and upset and scared and lonely and have basic needs too.

I just want to go home and I don't even know where that is.