CW; Medical, medical testing

Today I got an MRI of my brain and after that was an EMG test. During the MRI the vein the IV was in blew and so.e contrast pooled under my skin. It hurt really badly and I was crying and I just felt awful.

Finally, the EMG test comes around. The nurse advises me that the doctor will let me know what he is doing before he does it, and that the first part tests my nerves and the second part tests my muscles. The nerves will be tested with a small electrical shock to time the reaction of the nerves. My nerves looked fine at face value the doctor said.

Then came the muscle part of the test. This consisted of needles being inserted to the muscle, then flexing said muscle, and there would be sound like feedback from an amp a bit.

While getting the needles stuck in my arm and leg, the nurse held my hand and put her arm around my shoulders. I felt so comforted, and so safe. My mom was still sleeping because the appointments were early in the morning. But this nurse was doing so much for me in that moment. I wish I felt safe with my real mom.

I am scared about getting the results of what the EMG found and I will get my labs back on the genetic work they took to diagnose a disease, the other option being it may be too rare to have been identifiable yet.

Im scared and I feel like a big baby over this all. 😔