Hi mama. I’m having a terribly rough time. My health isn’t as good as it should be. I’ve been having lots of migraines, even after medicine for sinus infection.

I also feel like crying all the time. I’m watching dad drink himself into oblivion every weekend, just like he did when I was a kid. He even drove last weekend, after telling me he couldn’t see. I don’t know what to do. I’ve lost my biological mom. I don’t want to lose my dad too.

Nana hasn’t been doing well. She had breast cancer; luckily they got it all out and it didn’t spread. She’s having more bad days than good now due to her spinal stenosis. Her dementia is also getting worse. I spent the past 5 years taking care of her; I’m glad that auntie is doing it now, and that I was able to move back home but I miss her, even though she hurt me badly several times. It wasn’t her fault. She can’t help it; she’s sick.

My depression and anxiety keep making themselves known and I can’t make them stop, even with my medicine. I don’t know what to do.

I just wish I could lay my head in your lap while you scratch my head and back like you used to. Thank you mom, for everything.