Hey, Mom. This has been such a hard journey. Especially without a mom supporting me and guiding me. I didn’t even plan anything for my anniversary; I didn’t remember it until the day itself, and I was in the middle of a socially distanced family get together. My sister-in-law’s family gave me more positivity in that moment than you ever have been able to muster. It felt good to hear someone’s mom tell me she’s proud of me, even if it wasn’t you. I don’t understand why we can’t have a relationship like that, and sometimes I wonder why you had children. I don’t think you ever expected me to be my own person, making my own mistakes, having my own problems.

Regardless of what keeps you from bringing me any closer than arms length, I’m going to keep putting my effort in, keep telling you I love you, keep helping you and showing you I care. If you never can manage, at least I have reddit to love me.

I love you, mom.