break down.

I’ve just started a new job that is kind of in the field that I’m studying. But I have no idea what it is, or what to do. It’s risk, compliance, and governance. I miss my old job but my real mom is the reason why I don’t work there anymore. She was talking badly about me and so HR said “they didn’t have funds to keep me as an intern.” That could have been a permanent job in a field I love with people I got along with. Im also a full time student. I wake up at 5 am, get to work for 7:30, leave work at 4, go to class from 5:30-8or9. And I don’t even have time to go to the gym.

I’m currently in the file room trying not to cry while trying to convince myself that it isn’t so bad. I just wish I had a loving mom.