I love my friends and they're being the best friends that they can be to me, and I don't want to resent them but all of my close friends are currently in a place where they need constant mom-ing. If I don't ask them if they ate no one else will. If I don't try and keep them positive they'll sink, and I don't want them to. But I'm having to pour out so much hope that I have none left for myself and it's killing me dead inside if not out, and everything I hear is so miserable that I don't have anything left that's giving me hope to spare. I just wish I could reach out or conversely run away without a forwarding address but neither of those are viable.