I always knew it was going to be hard. This idea started being in my head months ago, and I've been grieving our relationship for months. I thought it was just going to be that pain for a few days or weeks. But it's a whole different type of pain. It's a gut wrenching, disgustingly painful type of heartbreak I've never experienced before in my life. It hit me like a train, especially since I didn't expect it to be so bad. I've never hurt so much in my life, it's unbearable. I try to distract myself as much as possible and go out of the house and be around people during the day. But the nights are very hard. I could use some words of encouragement and love.