I am an intern who got her mbbs degree last year. I have been fucked up like with anger issues, inability to focus, self sabotaging, suicide attempts and like my mind is just not in my control. During my psychiatry posting I finally decided to go talk and it was traumatic reliving everything again but I thought it'd fix me yk. So they guy told me okay now come to my clinic and tell all this to my wife again and I did but even tho they said it's insane that I have lived so long without medications they refused to give me meds saying they need to inform my parents. And man talking about that shit twice cost me 2 weeks of my life cause all I did after that was cry eat sleep or like take my anger out for no reason on my friends or some shit. It's paralysing but I just fucking want to get a masters on my own merit and not let my brain fuck me up. I failed all my exams after 11th and started scoring really well once I moved to my college hostel/city cause was away from all that. But like right before my finals in 2023 I just stop moving, like my mind refuses to even look at a book and that cost me my rank. I don't want to live by my past so a friend suggested modafanil and I tried it yesterday and today but I don't feel much. Any suggestions on any other drug ?