Hello :)

I am a dude who's lonely ngl, but most importantly I am seeking someone I have chemistry with.

I am open to a lot of different types of intimacy because chemistry is the number one thing for me that I want, although I am hoping to find a girlfriend who is open to being "mommy" from time to time (or it can be any kind of caregiver role, like maybe a "royal maid" for example). I'd like a safe space to regress as a little sometimes. I have a "soft therapy daddy" side as well, but I more often than not prefer being the one who gets what he wants and the one who gets pampered. Don't take that as I want to completely ignore or neglect my partner's needs though as that is not the case, unless that was your kink I suppose.

I kind of have been thinking I have memories of wanting a monogamous relationship, and yet it has been increasingly more difficult for me to think I still want that. An open relationship/live-in polyamorous relationship(s) have been feeling appealing to me, yet in a weird way I still want a sidekick or cheerleader through it all. I want to explore and date other women, but with somebody... but not like in a throuple way most likely although I'm not against that. I think realistically starting off monogamist/monogamish and then slowly transferring things into polyamory and/or cuckqueaning once we have a foundation of trust would be ideal. I imagine it'd be best to do that over a period of a few years or years, but I suppose maybe shorter is okay.

It's by no means a limit, but I would feel happier and more appreciated if the multi-partner thing was one-sided assuming we end up becoming long-term primary partners. It's not the relationship structure itself that does it for me, but rather I am using it as a tool to chase down the feelings and connection I desire in a relationship. Don't take it as a necessarily submissive thing, but it's like an act of service to me, which is my primary love language.

A ride-or-die or unconditional lover I guess is what I am looking for. Anyways, that's the relationship structure I think that I am seeking in my idea of my ideal relationship.

I am a goonery guy (reading that back makes me cringe but whatever we're keeping it), and I have been spending a lot of time indoors watching youtube and coomin' to weird stuff which nsfw stuff is a special interest per se. Btw I am autistic so yay. If you have questioned whether or not you have autism, then speaking from experience there is a higher chance we will at least like each other.

I like ghostemane kind of music as a genre although I don't listen to him as an artist in particular very much. I'm in college. I don't do much but play rougelikes rn. Another special interest of mine is personal finance, and I want to start a business. You know I think I'm very selfish, and I don't see anything wrong with that - because surprisingly my past therapists didn't necessarily see anything wrong with that. Although, I am seeking someone who is okay with that high level of selfishness obviously, but also I just wanna be a cool guy to you still and nice and kind and stuffs if I'm intimate with you. I have a caring side, and not everything is transactional. I literally just think about myself a lot ig lol, at least compared to others.

I am 215lbs and losing weight, 5'9", long wavy brown hair (please run your fingers through it, with explicit consent), small beard and mustache, white skin, dark blue eyes, glasses, kinda broad shoulders, and a somewhat hairy body. I know some people don't want to know/hear about people's genitals because it's off-putting for whatever reason, but some do, so just in case we're not sexually compatible lemme just say mine is 3" uncut, and I have a caked up booty.

This might be a bit dry, I think I was feeling depresso expresso so my apologies. I love apologizing btw lol.

I am bi with a preference for women especially romantically, and my type in men is much older men - larger, hairy, bald... aka your stepdad. I am not wild about d/s in particular, but I do switch yet I really prefer bottoming compared to topping. So I prefer being a side the most often, then a bottom, and then a top the least often. I think it's because I have a big kink for handjobs (and prostate milking and rimming) even though I'm too much of a virgin to have had one lol.

Then, just so you know we will probably fall flat if you don't want to voice call on uh a certain "thing" when you dm me. It's just because I don't like wasting time getting to know people over text, and it feels less authentic per se.

I am a clingy lover although sometimes I get busy of course, like a lot tbh. One thing I want to do is watch horror movies and anime because I haven't seen much, and I have been holding off on doing it for intimacy moments with a partner or friend too I guess but moreso a partner.

I get obsessive about some things in particular like I like knowing what my partner is thinking 24/7, being thought about too, and then acts of service are my love language so they really get me going as I said but that could manifest into hoping you sometimes take the lead to check in on me too or communicate with me because having to pry a lot makes me feel sad.

Also, I get attached quickly sometimes, but also unrelated note or maybe not idk but I am in therapy still. And then random fact but I am a blushy, giggly, nervous wreck.

I am picky when it comes to choosing a primary partner although these aren't necessarily deal-breakers. These are shallow things I tend to like in a person. Recently, I have been preferring someone most importantly with fat under eyebags aka an aegyo-sal look kinda, and then a kinda pointed or strong chin I really love, someone below average weight so skinny (if not that, then I love chubby, average, and athletic women too) but also maybe tall for a woman, and then I love women often times who are multiracial with a part of that being asian (blasian, wasian, or lasian as far as I know!) in particular or instead of multiracial asian I usually prefer asian, native, or white women. I also prefer women who are like 18-29 although above that is perfectly lovely. If you're older than that, then I am very much flexible.

Would love to talk and get to know you, baiiiiii :3