It goes against everything I’m about IRL. Maybe that’s what makes it so hot to me is that every time i try and stay away because i get scared off, i always come back. usually when i’m ovulating or my cycle starts and i’m just really horned up and lose all sense of reason but i come back anyways. i never do this irl. i don’t even entertain the thought of meeting anyone in real life. because to all of my friends and everyone i know, i’m an extremely shy person who is scared to talk to men. i’m super nerdy about my interests but most wouldn’t know that cause i literally don’t say a word in my classes (which are mostly male dominated since i’m a compsci major). i’m painfully meek and my friends think i’m not even a lesbian like i claim to be, they think i’m ace with how little interest i have in having sex or doing anything. which i think makes it all the more interesting that as soon as i’m done with class, i rush back to my dorm room and mindlessly rub my pussy to things talking about female inferiority, lesbian conversion, brainwashing, etc. All super taboo stuff that no one would guess I’d be into. It sometimes makes me feel ashamed that I’m basically cosplaying as a smart girl in my classes only to masturbate myself dumb to stuff talking about women knowing their place and that sort of stuff. I’ll even talk to people on here and then even though I get scared and leave for a little while, i always come back hornier than i was before.