Heyo

I'm looking for fun and romantic intimacy. I have so many things I want to try and do that I don't want to feel like I'm misleading people lol. That being said, I am looking for one particular thing with this post.

I just basically want a "bangmaid" of a cuckslave to love. I don't want to care about your desires or train you. I just want to love you and use you and have you be my "sidepiece" or "fleshlight" (if you're lucky) while I pursue another lover while you do whatever I want. I couldn't be happy with just one lover who is a slave. I have other kink needs instead of just bullying and using somebody. That's not to say I won't have respect for you, but I have a... selfish brain sometimes? Just like, not mean necessarily, but selfish inclinations in general. So, like I was thinking I'd probably want someone selfless and masochistic and "my bitch" to love. :)

And by the way, I am into a lot of things, but I am not interested in being a macho man, a sir, a brat tamer, a typical slave trainer, and hell - sometimes even a top... just so we can get that clear. You could call these my limits.

So I'll just say, about me: I am a "smert" guy who wants to own a business and retire early. I get greedy and once in a while I am an unempathetic asshole because my default is to think about myself, but I try to be kind with I am intimate with and people in general. I already said that, but I honestly think any pain I cause people is because of autism that makes me hard to communicate with and high emotions. It's never about malice or revenge. I suppose I am a mixed bag in that regard.

Also I am a silly goose, so there's that lol. I like horror, and I can be creepy sometimes too so hopefully you like that. (For example, I want to jerk off and watch you shower or eat your pubes or sniff your panties orrrrr tell you I have been fantasizing about cutting off your limbs and slicing out your vocal cords while you are blindfolded, deafened, and gagged so you're nothing but a sensory-deprived quadriplegic aka a little puppy you can fuck hehe. It's just an example.)

I mentioned not topping. So, I don't really care about vaginal sex usually, and I figured I would like someone to serve me. It's not just like a using women or objectification thing. It's like an act of service, an act of love to me. Acts of service like letting me have the benefit of the doubt or letting me do things where I'm feeling like I'm getting the better end of things makes me feel loved by a partner. One of the things would be having multiple romantic partners living with us and having you stay in chastity while you have to eat my ass and let my spit loogies in your mouth (for example) every night lol. I don't really care about your orgasm or denying you, so maybe I'm the perfect partner if you want someone who will take advantage of you and make you beg once in a while so you can "earn" your orgasm. I like the idea of having prostate massages, being milked, and just worshipped in general. I would want to freely use and "worship" your different body parts, but usually on my terms. I don't even care about being dominant (now occasionally extremely sadistic on the other hand.... 😬), but I just like getting my way.

I hope you don't mind a pathetic/passive "hot husband" lol. I just happen to not really fit into a typical masculine role because I am too cute for that shit lol. At least, I have been told I am cute. It'd be hot to like live like a manchild in nothing but my underwear and maybe monching on some cookies you made me while I'm gaming and you're "nursing" on daddy's nipple in a maid dress or stripper outfit haha. Maybe when there's a mud puddle, you put your coat down for me instead of me doing it for you. Or maybe you carry me to the bathroom even though I might be like one and a half or twice your weight. Just like.... living the dream. That's what I want. To feel like a king.

The whole being fed grapes while getting my dick sucked and playing video games on my "throne" kind of thing. Not having to lift a finger.

As a side note, take this with a grain of salt because most people probably wouldn't be into this, but one person told me that they would help me cope with my trauma by helping me age regress and they'd play as "mommy" for me whenever I wanted. The caveat though was they said they were a switch and that I could freely use and (cnc) "rape" them as a way to take it out on mommy. Just a thought. Idk if it'll click with anybody, but it'd be really nice especially since I think my extreme sadism is a reaction to the trauma in my past. Anyways... sorry that was probably un-hot, or actually maybe this is hot too lol even though I just added it on a whim, unplanned...

And that's hot and all, but I need to fall in love with you first. I highly highly highly prefer women with an "aegyo sal" or "eye love bands" asthetic to their eyes. I also love women with a lot of empathy because I can be hard to empathize with.

Anyways, if you're interested in something, let me know your asl, what post/subreddit you came from, and why you're messaging me. See ya ;)