Despite this being maybe the worst week I've had all year I'm somehow managing to maintain a feral level of hornyness. It's almost as if life's frustrations, which normally make me feel irritated and defeated, now just make me feel horny. Not even irritated as before just incredibly sexually frustrated. Like each tsunami of bullshit hurled at me is being met with a desire to be facefucked until I cant remember what was bothering me. Like my body just said "no, we aren't going to care about other people's bullshit, we are solely going to care about being anally trained and railed, after all these holes are meant for fucking." Never thought I'd catch myself here.

I find it interesting I guess.. the sudden hormonal changes out of nowhere not stopping or even slowing down. It's not just affecting my leisure time it's affecting me at work. I'm finding the hours I spend working all my jobs aren't worth it when those some of those same hours could be spent exploring this obsessive need to pleasure others and myself. The intrusive thoughts telling me to listen to all those past proposals and pursue a basic boring housewife role, having everything taken care of for me. All these years it hasn't made any sense to me, why give up all my power to some guy who thinks he can buy my freedom? Only now I feel like the fool. I've turned down very comfortable proposals that would fulfill big dreams of mine, and why? Previously viewing my current position as being independent and being empowered, when all this time I could have been concerning myself less with unnecessary work and more with being a fuckdoll. How stupid can I be?

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