We had been ttc for 4yrs and fell pregnant last August. We were just about to start IVF. And got it naturally. She...yes she. Was very very lovwd and wanted.

Anyway- She didnt make it. Ive been very open with my struggles ttc because Ive been wanting to make it normal for people. So many dont share they are pregnant before 12wks but most miscarriages happen before that and that's when they need support.

I let my closest friends know.

3 days after the D&C one of my longest friends and mrs called. They knew Id just lost ours. And knew the struggles I went through getting pregnant etc. They called to tell me they were pregnant .

Ok... let me stress if they were announcing it on FB that week and wanted me to know privately so I dont get hurt. Ok. But they didnt announce it for another 4mths. Why not wait a few weeks after my loss? Why 3 friken days after mine.

Im not trying to hate them. But this is one Ive really struggled holding back the "hate" from Ive muted all their posts etc. Let me stress I am happy for them. Just infuriated over the fact they had no sort of respect or whatever youd call it for me...3 days after mine went.

I admit the news set me into this huge spiral of depression and I was lost for ages. I still am. Since this miscarriage. I got a cervical cancer diagnosis. I need surgery again (already had some) which the gyno said most likely will be pushing kids off for ages if not permanently. Its like everything is working in our favour and its mentally draining. Im the friend with 0 kids. That no one invites me places because they are all mums and doing mum things e.g Like not having a kid singles me out. And that isnt helping with the depression. Im supposed to have friends atm and dont.

Heaps of my friends are pregnant and it sucks but this one above is the only one I havent showed interest in. And I hate myself for it. But I dont check if theyve had her or not. I honestly have barely spoken to them.

Theres a time and place for it and that wasnt it. And Im really struggling with it