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So I haven't had my period in 3 months wich is semi normal for me. I have pcos and endometriosis. I had a faint positive line beginning of February. My doctor said I was pregnant. Then 2 weeks later I take another one and it says negative. ( wanted a clear one for picture book type thing) well they say oops nope not pregnant just a cyst. So I get depressed about that and agree to 2 shifts at work of heavy lifting tables to get my mind off it. Well I get crushed between several tables (people kept letting go) I have stomach cramps and think welp at least I'm not pregnant it should be fine. Well last night I bleeding like crazy and a clot the size of my palm with a weird looking thing in it. Like a squiggle is how I told my husband. Apon looking closer it was a child. I had a miscarriage. I am scared to go to the doctors cuz of all these new laws. I called off work today and so did my husband. I can't stop crying and idk what to do or how to help my body. I just know i am scared and super depressed and my mind is not being kind.. i feel like a failure...Any advice is much appreciated! Thank you in advance !