33F married mom of two here.

CHEATING -

(was never into it, but sometimes situations get out of control)

Two months ago, I went on a girls' trip to a different country for a week. We hired a tour guide who was 43 years old. After meeting him, I found out that he was my old college friend's ex-boyfriend.

I was surprised to see him, and since we knew each other, our bonding increased instantly. My other female friends didn't mind our little bit of closeness as it was friendly (that's what I thought too), but I never knew when it went beyond boundaries. In the end, we end up sleeping the night before the last day of our vacation.

GUILT -

Since I was not into cheating and ended up sleeping with another guy, I felt very guilty. As a wife and mother, I shouldn't have done this. I not only cheated my husband but also fooled my female friends. I wanted to forget that night, but I was corrupted already. There was something that made me feel that what I did was what I needed and that I would not forget that night.

CONFESSED -

After coming back from vacation, I was the same woman for my husband, but I knew I wasn't that woman anymore. I was not sure whether I should confess it or not because there was something that was stopping me from doing so. After a few days, I decided I shouldn't keep him in the dark. I was not sure about his reaction, but I wanted to confess it. One day, I confessed this to him, and he felt sad and stopped talking with me for a few days. But in the end, he forgives me, and my life is back to normal, but I knew it wasn't anymore because I was corrupted.

ADDICTED TO SOMETHING -

(I have to clarify that I have not cheated since then yet.)

It was more than a month, and I still haven't forgotten what I did on the trip. That 'something' that I mentioned above is what I call being obsessed with what I did. Yes, I have confessed to myself that what I did not only made me feel guilty but also made me addicted. My guilt was minimised after I confessed it to my husband, but my addiction was increasing day by day. Since I have crossed my boundaries, now I can catch people staring at me, I am into getting more attention, love when people flirt with me. These are all things that are turning me on, which wasn't a thing before I cheated.

If I have to share a bit about my marriage life, then I would say me and hubby have not been active much since last year, and it all changed after the kids were born. Sometimes I feel that this is the reason I end up cheating and getting into other things. I am not sure where I am going from here now, but surely not in the direction my husband is expecting.