I just learned the word for someone that masks their pain with a smile. I have been having to do that more here recently because of a situation going on it my life that required a extremely difficult decision to be made. You never really know what someone is truly feeling when they have been faking a smile for most of my life. I really hate to burden other people with my problems or stress them out cuz I am stressing out and I don’t want to ruin good vibes either so a lot of time I face my problems solo because I have been facing them solo since I was a child. I didn’t feel safe or comfortable telling my parents about my feelings let alone having to inform them of the trauma that wasn’t caused by them. Even when I did, my mom woke me up in the middle of the night with a slap to the face and her talking at me that I’m going to ruin my life by talking about it and my dad had no reaction which isn’t surprising.