I was on suboxone for 2 years. 8mg 4x a day. Never failed a drug test or missed a appointment. The program I was in got cut so I had to find a new program and all there was is a methadone clinic that's just under an hour away. So I've been doing that for about 9 months now. I was told by my counselor that when I got to phase 3 I would get weekly take homes. Well I phased up last Friday and apparently nothing changes. This is not the first time my counselor has given me wrong information. He never removes my flags I always have to call him twice to get my medicine. Anyway he basically told me there was nothing they could do for me. He doesn't work at the building I go to I've only ever spoken with him on the phone. So when I get there I ask if there is anyone I can speak to about my dosing. They told me to talk to my counselor and I asked if there was anyone else. She just called over the other register lady that told me there is no difference in phase 3 and I'd have to wait until phase 4. I'd been barely hanging on to make it until now. My wife is 8 months pregnant with twins and she's had to come with me every time because we only have 1 car and I don't want to leave her without a vehicle so I drive to the clinic then back the hour to my job and she takes the car to her work from home job. There is no way I'm going to be able to do that when the babies are here. I told them that I'm going to have to get off and asked them how quickly I could do it. They said you can do it as quickly as you want. I told them that I wanted to know what the quickest safest way was. She told me I'm going to be sick anyway and I should just jump off. I'm at 120mgs so I told her thanks for nothing and went to wait for my dose. The girl that gives the doses said I probably shouldn't go down more then 6 at a time so that's what I'm doing. I remember back from my drug days that some opiates are easier to wd from then others. I'm thinking about switching to morphine or something like that weening myself down quick then biting the bullet for the 3 or 4 days it will take to kick that. I remember when they fucked up my suboxone appointment and I had to go without for 7 days. It was the worst wds I've ever felt. It hit me all at once like a truck and I really do not want to do that. I don't know what methadone wds are like but I haven't heard anything good. I'm fucking pissed that these assholes treat me like this after 3 years clean never failing a drug test. It's ridiculous I pay for the privilege to be talked down to and treated like a child. I want to just kick right now. If I could find some bars I'd do it. I've got to be there for my kids and I dont want them to see their daddy drinking some red shit every morning anyway. I might have to go out of town for work soon anyway. It was never a problem on suboxone because I got a month at a time. But every other day I won't be able to make any money. Anyway just wanted to talk to someone because my counselor is so shit can't talk to him.