I am a 39 yo male. Who has has ptsd since 19 and adhd with probably au. Got the ptsd diag early. But nothing seemed to help. Ive always been adhd internal type. Always performed above expectations but last year I finally got laid off of a union construction gig. I was burnt out and have a bad case of bi lateral sciatica. Since i took some time off. Planning on going into nursing because it was a passion. I am scared and frustrated to do anything. I have a therapist and a good primary but almost like I got worse in my head. Ive been treading water for like 5 months waiting on college and nothing feels right anymore. My partner is pretty great and i try but i have really the world is our days and really i can't feel okay in my own skin days. Guess I'm trying to cover a lot of nuances in a post. Just mentally I want to be okay. I can't seem to hold it anymore.