22 (M) Two months ago me and the absolute love of my life separated for good , and me meet around this time last year and fell in love, and I've never been single for Chrismas. On top of this I quit my job because of poor work environment. I had something lined up and was told I had gotten the job but didn't find out until later that I'm not getting hired until after the holidays so financially I'm really stressed. I'm not really close with any of my friends and they're either out of my life or occupied with their own. My social life is non existent and I have a decent relationship with my family but I honestly get more stressed being around them.. I have ADHD, anxiety, depression and seasonal depression and that's everything that's diagnosed. It gets dark at 5 so more often then not I don't see the sunlight. These is all to summarize my situation, and I'm current in therapy but some days are really a struggle and I just feel alone, helpless and pathetic.

I've realized after my relationship I was co dependent and don't really have any self esteem, and it doesn't help the fact she was the love of my life I've never been with a person I thought I would marry and wanted to have a future together. Some days I can barely function. Other days I do to much and still feel like I didn't do anything.

I've been on dating apps and hooking up and its only served to make me more self conscious and anxious regardless of how it goes.

I'm not really sure what I'm hoping to get from posting this, feel free to DM me if you feel like its something you can't comment.